Step One (Check), Step Two (Check), Step.. Three?

Today I was driving through a desolate desert full of cactus that were covered in snow on a two way highway, and the majority of the trip I could barely see through my windshield. There were many puddles from the melting snow and a truck in front of me that splashed muddy water onto my windshield. I could barely see what was right in front of me; that is how life is much of the time. I usually feel like my future is really foggy and I can make some plans, but there is no guarantee. My future is held in the hands of God and some times I plan my ways, but God makes my paths straighter and what happens wasn’t exactly what I had planned or thought would be best, thus I am usually humbled by God’s unfolding plan that is much greater. When I was driving with that splashed up window I thought about how many times God leaves things foggy and doesn’t give me much direction on His plan, it is those times when I really have to trust him. When I do not trust God, it is me thinking my ways are better; the thought of that is really offensive. How can I think that? The feeling I get when I think about that really offensive statement makes me want to trust God even though I do not know what He is going to do with all of these desires, passions, and ideas I have. My window got really dirty yesterday too, and when I had to drive a few miles across town I could not see, everything was blurred. However, my Dad cleaned it for me this morning and I could see perfectly fine out the window, and then it got dirty again on my way back to Santa Clarita today near the beginning of the trip. This happens too; sometimes God makes things really clear for a while and the desires in my heart seem to match His, doors open, and opportunities come. Then, after that next step is taken, it usually gets a little foggy again. Proverbs 16:9 says, “The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” If the Lord establishes my steps, what makes me think He is going to establish step five when He is barely establishing step two? It is good to look forward, but not if I am being anxious about it. I wouldn’t want to overlook an opportunity right here, right now, because I am so caught up in trying to figure out what is next to come. Sometimes I loose my sensitivity to the needs of others, because I am looking past them to the blurry future that is not yet here. God has the power to reveal steps three, four, and five, when I am barely taking step two, if that would glorify Him best, but that is not always the case. Sometimes, it is a person not knowing the next step, but taking it by faith, that glorifies Him most! There is something more exciting to me about stepping into the not so clear ocean, than stepping into a clear freshly chlorinated swimming pool. Lord, may your Glory be made known in which ever way is Best!